Name

Destanie,

with a 'nie'.

It is a name I hate,

it always pulls me down

like an eighty pound weight.

It brings back the memories,

while I am trying to get free.

This is what it means to me.

Destanie.

It's mommies voice in my head

screaming "You'll never be enough."

It's all the things I turned to

when times had gotten tough...

Because before the drunken slurs,

back when she loved me

she named me-

Destanie.

It's the constant reminder

of where I come from

It's the devil on my shoulder saying

"She's exactly what you'll become."

Maybe I don't have a choice 

in who I'm going to be.

Maybe it's just my-

Destiny.

It's kind of like fate,

"What must be, must be."

While the future maybe brighter

patience is key.

But until then I'll keep my head up

because tomorrow is not a guarantee.

If only I knew my-

Destanie.

I'm that girl with the bright smile,

who once wanted to die.

Even with a past I'll never escape,

I can be anything if I try.

My past has made me stronger,

and there is no one I'd rather be.

I'm perfect the way I am, as 

Destanie.